Last night I was talking with some friends, and one of them started to share with the rest of the girls something "profound" I had told her. My ears perked up, "what did I say?" I honestly couldn't remember.
She began to explain the scenario, and it came flooding back to me:
When the babies were small (which actually lasted for quite a while), Kevin was working late, I had already put our big boys to bed, fed the little ones, swaddled them, and was standing over one and calming the other one down. I rotated between Evan and Eli; one would be crying while I held the other, and it continued this way for at least an hour.
I felt like I was at a breaking point, and I cried out to God, "Please...please, help them, put your hands on them, calm their little bodies, I believe you can do it, take this burden away even if it's just for an hour."
As my friend explained, she was on the edge of her seat, wondering, did he? Did God calm them?
No. They continued to scream and cry.
But through their tears the Holy Spirit spoke gently to my heart saying, "My grace is sufficient, I will calm your heart, this is how you will know more fully who I am."
It is in moments of desperation we find the grace of God to be most fulfilling.
She began to explain the scenario, and it came flooding back to me:
When the babies were small (which actually lasted for quite a while), Kevin was working late, I had already put our big boys to bed, fed the little ones, swaddled them, and was standing over one and calming the other one down. I rotated between Evan and Eli; one would be crying while I held the other, and it continued this way for at least an hour.
I felt like I was at a breaking point, and I cried out to God, "Please...please, help them, put your hands on them, calm their little bodies, I believe you can do it, take this burden away even if it's just for an hour."
As my friend explained, she was on the edge of her seat, wondering, did he? Did God calm them?
No. They continued to scream and cry.
But through their tears the Holy Spirit spoke gently to my heart saying, "My grace is sufficient, I will calm your heart, this is how you will know more fully who I am."
It is in moments of desperation we find the grace of God to be most fulfilling.
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